Minuscula Sed Ferox
(Icon Art by Lindsay Small-Butera)
Feeling ugly, undesireable and generally terrible.
I’m too earnest and sensitive, why can’t I be trashy and unrepentantly gross like all the cool kids
Not to say that John Green’s work isn’t probably loaded with problematic content, I’m just too suspicious of dogpiling on media that has a high percentage of young women as its consumers to get into the whole point-and-laugh game.
There needs to be a youtube trend of people recording coming home from work and greeting their cats.
I need this to compensate for the lack of cat in my own life.
I know little children are only curious and have no malice in their hearts when they ask me “are you a boy or a girl?” but I’m honestly getting a little tired of having to do the whole explanation of why I am a girl even though I apparently don’t look enough like one for it to be immediately obvious. It only makes me wonder what kind of gender representations they’re being exposed to if the sight of me with short hair, no makeup, and neutral apparel apparently makes them confused enough to ask.
Anyways, my new answer is to just bug out my eyes and say “I AM A SPACE ALIEN!!!!” and they’re usually amused enough to forget the issue.
Life and Times of An Immense Nerdlord
I’m pleasant enough to look at, but I wonder…
Am I actually sexually desireable? Does anyone actually look at me and think, “Wow, I would really like to be physically intimate with her?”